dark

2010-02-06T04:27:00.002+08:00

1st time I saw you, I saw you as a stranger.

2nd time I saw you, I remembered that you were the same person who I saw the first time.

3rd time I saw you, I knew now that you were part of the crowd I see everytime I see you.

4th time I saw you, I saw you once again, but this time I seemed to be interested in you.

5th time I saw you, I thought you were kinda hot, but the thought went away.

6th-10th time I saw you, I didn't care about seeing you anymore.

11th time I saw you, we were sitting next to each other in class, we didn't know each other well.

12th time I saw you, I started talking to you more frequently and we seemed to have some similar interests.

13th time I saw you, I remembered you were the same person who I thought was hot for a while.

14th-20th time I saw you, I started to have a stronger friendship with you.

21st time I saw you, I started to have feelings for you, but it was different this time.

22nd time I saw you, I remembered that you had the same personality of the same person I used to like.

23rd time I saw you, I didn't like you for your looks this time around, but I liked you for your great personality.

24th-27th time I saw you, I started opening up to you about my deepest secrets everytime we sat together in class.

28th time I saw you, I remembered that from the first time we talked to each other, it seemed obvious to me and my friends that you liked me.

29th time I saw you, I liked you more than ever because of your personality.

30th time I saw you, I sat beside you in class and we shared secrets again and my heart was crushed when you told me that you liked this guy and you wanted me to try to be his friend and then try to hook you guys up.

31st-35th time I saw you, I lost all thought of having a chance to be yours.

36th time I saw you, I planned of getting it over with because it's been a burden on me and telling the next time I see you that I love you.

37th time I would've seen you, I didn't see you in the crowd anymore.

38th time I would've seen you, I didn't see you in school because I was told that you sick.

39th time I saw you, I've now lost the courage of telling you that I love you now that the moment when I really wanted to tell you that I love you has passed.

40th time I saw you, I couldn't tell you how I really feel because it's been so long already.

41st time I saw you, I just try to make you happy now by my actions which gives me artificial happiness because I'm not always with you...

As this number increases, I will continue to regret everything. I will regret ever seeing you, meeting you, becoming your friend, liking you because you were good looking, loving you because of your personality, knowing that you liked someone else, not knowing that I didn't have a chance from the start, not knowing that you wouldn't love me the way I did to you...but I thank you for this. Thanks for changing my life for the better and the worse. BETTER: You made me feel special, I've become a better person, and I'm glad that I became your friend. WORSE: I didn't have the chance, I now have the feel that I lost someone I love, you will never know I love you, this will all be a burden, and part of me wishes we never became friends.

But I just want you to know this...I will ALWAYS love you.

the thing is...you never will

2010-02-02T03:00:00.003+08:00

In 2 years he will probably have forgotten about her.
In 2 years.. she will be with her friends hanging out, she has not heard or seen from him.
Randomly a friend mentions his name.
And the Incompletely girl with the fake smile is all of a sudden completed with the biggest grin on her face. Brightening up the room with that sparkle in her eye.
All her friends will notice.. and one will reply..
"You really did love him didn't you."
and of course she will reply..
"Yeah.. I Did!" then sofly whisper.."I still Do"

I sit alone,
my heart slowly breaking,
I'm just sitting there,
waiting, waiting for you
to come online, waiting for
you to say hello. But this
waiting, its hurting me
more then you'll know. You
don't understand how much
I smile when you reply.
You don't understand that
when you sign off, I feel
like crying. Inside
I'm dying when you aren't
there. && every night I
fall asleep to my favorite
lullaby, the memories of your
voice, your laugh, and when
I wakes up in the morning,
its like I've never left that
place. I go to work
hoping, praying, something
brings you back. My mood
depends on if I've seen you
today - if I have, everything
is perfect, but beware if I
haven't seen you, the pain is
too much to keep inside.
You're my world, its
true, and all I really want
you to know is I love you
with all my heart, but I'm
too shy, too afraid and too
deep in this to return. My
smile masks it so well, you'd
never even tell...but trust
me when I say it, I'm
fallen so hard for you, so fast.
I just your
average person, nothing special,
nothing great, but maybe one
day you'll come to understand,
I've loved you all along.

2010-01-23T02:36:00.000+08:00

His side

-"tell her how you feel" is what my friends said
-so i picked up the phone
-called your house
-you answerd
-i said "i love you"
-and hung up right after
-the next day
-i told you it was a bet from a friend
-it was partly true
-but you didn't answer
-no sassy come back which you always do
-just stood there
-then walked away

Her side

-he called my house
-i picked up
-he told me he loved me
-then hung up
-the next day
-i was going to tell you i loved you back
-but you said it was a bet
-i had everything planned out
-every move i planned
-every word
-but when you said that...
-i had nothing to say
-i stood and watched you
-as you broke my heart

2009-12-12T13:40:00.001+08:00

Derick:
I guess we are the left-overs in this world.

Lily:
I think so...all of my friends have boyfriends, and we are the only the 2 people left in this world without any special person in our lives.

Derick:
Yup, I don't know what to do.

Lily:
I know! We'll play a game.

Derick:
What game?

Lily:
I'll be your girlfriend for 30 days
and you will be my boyfriend.

Derick:
That's a great plan, in fact, I don't have anything to do
much for the following few weeks.

DAY 1:
They watch their first movie
and they both are touched by the romantic film.

DAY 4:
They went go to the beach and have a picnic. Derick and Lily have their quality time together.

DAY 12:
Derick invited Lily to a circus and they ride through a Horror House.
Lily was scared and she thought she touched Derick's hand but she actually touched someone else's hand they both laughed.

DAY 15:
They saw a fortune teller down the road, and they asked for their future advice.
The fortune teller said:
"My darlings, please don't waste the time of your life, spend the rest of your time together, happily." Then tears flowed out from the teller's eyes.

DAY 20:
Lily invited Derick to go to the hill
and they saw a meteor; Lily mumbled something.

DAY 28:
They sat on the bus, and because of a bumpy road Lily gave her first kiss to Derick by accident.

DAY 29:
11:37 pm:
Lily and Derick sat in the park where they first decided to play this game.

Derick:
I'm tired Lily...Do you want anything to drink? I'll buy you one...I'll just go down the road.

Lily:
An Apple Juice, that's all. Thank you.

Derick:
Wait for me.

20 minutes later
A stranger approached Lily

Stranger:
Are you a friend of Derick?

Lily:
Yes, why? What happened?

Stranger:
A reckless drunk driver ran over Derick, and he is in critical condition in the hospital.

11:57 pm:
The doctor walked out of the emergency room; he handed Lily an apple juice and a letter.

Doctor:
We found this in Derick's pocket.

Lily reads the letter and it says:
Lily, These past few weeks, I realized you are a really cute girl, and I am really falling for you-your cherished smile, your everything when we played this game. Before this game ends, I would like you to be my girlfriend for the rest of my life.
I love you, Lily.

Lily crumpled up the paper and shouted:

"Derick! I don't want you to die-
I love you; remember that night when we saw a meteor and I mumbled something. I mumbled that I wish we would be together forever and that we would never have to end this game. Please don't leave me Derick .. I love you! You can't do this to me!"

Then the clock strikes 12...

Derick's heart stopped pumping...

It was the 30th day.

2009-12-08T15:13:00.002+08:00

Today a day off from work. Lol. Nothing better to do so come here blog. Anyway, I have started working since last Saturday. 1st day was ok, juz that my partner never teach me anything. Juz keep asking me do what do what. ==''. Then 2nd day was not so good. Communication fail 1. 1 person ask me do this then other person ask me dun care him juz do what she say. =='' Go die lar, want me listen to who. 3 people asking me do different things at the same time. Then worst day is yesterday, broke 2 plates. =='' Carried oval tray with things on it and very heavy then carried for at least 10 times carry liao still need serve food, my partner so damn slow lar. I serve finish 2 tables she still serving the 1st 1. Next time I go pick up food i stroll there stroll back. =P But need see who my partner 1st. Lol. Yesterday 3am then go sleep. Lol cant sleep although i felt tired. Tmr work hope wont break any more plates. Lol. But break also dun need pay, dun care lar. Lol

2009-12-04T09:32:00.002+08:00

Been a while since i last posted. So lets talk about yesterday as it is still early in the morning so nothing much happened for today. Yesterday morning went kallang to learning coxing from Raymond. Lol. Then after that Raymond brought me to eat and then go to Expo to collect his things and then to Water Venture at lakeside. After that we went to watch New Moon at Jp with some other dragonboat friends. And back home after that. So thats all for yesterday. Lol. Tmr i will be starting to work so wont be posting much.

2009-11-26T17:40:00.003+08:00

Hehe. Today nothing better to do. Went to youtube and learn some Korean language. The so called alphabet of it is so funny to pronounce. Know how to write my name. But my computer dun have the thing to type Korean one. Dunno where to find it. So cant type out. Even if have i think i also dunno how to type it out. Lol. I managed to copy some words from some websites. 사랑해요 [Know the meaning?] Tell me if you know. :)

2009-11-24T23:06:00.003+08:00

Phew. Finally done editing templates and all that. ==''. Took up around 3 hours to complete it. Today as usual a boring day. No work no games no nothing. Will be going for registration for work this coming Saturday. Wonder how is it like. My skin is starting to come out already cuz of the sunburn last week. What should i do during the next 4 days? Play basketball? Sleep the whole day? Learn my guitar?[If only someone could teach me]. Shall stop here for today. Nothing else that i could write cuz today is really a boring day and it will be boring until Thursday or even Friday, depends.

2009-11-22T00:09:00.003+08:00

Am here to revive my dead blog. Lol. Let see what should I blog about. Lets talk about graduation night/dinner or whatever u called it. Its fun? Lol. Our last gathering. Not including the day we go back for our results. Then went to play bowling after that and taxi home. Back to today then, went for Singapore River Reggata. Lose until quite jialat? Nvm bah cuz this is my first race with the Dragnix team. Anyway nice job guys. Without the 5 sec penalty would be much better =P. Lol. Now watching 我猜. Cuz nth better to do liao. No games no nth. Hehe only got facebook's mousehunt. 1 click every 15mins. ==''. Ok done with today's post. Shall update when I'm free.

2009-02-18T16:51:00.002+08:00

Finally a time to update my blog. Yesterday have dragon boat training and watched a lot of videos about dragon boat. After training we went to the swing there and play. Then we swing until very high then the stand of the swing go up and chenghui scream so loud then we keep laughing. Enough about yesterday, back to today.
Nothing much intresting in school except miss kang dun want shake hands with me... and later at night going alvin's house to photo copy something. Currently playing runescape and dota cuz dunno what game to play already...

2009-01-31T23:39:00.000+08:00

A few words... ...

no lar got some more words... ...

Juz some... ...

Some more words.

2008-09-09T19:15:00.003+08:00

Sian also dunno y english fail. zzz. Moderate until fail?... i got 20/40 then dunno what moderate become 19.5/40 then fail only affects those who got 20/40 then i suay suay got 20/40 then fail lor. Lol. Both languages i have all fail language how to study? Chinese fail Engilsh fail then the others pass. Lol. Scared later SA also fail english...

Funny Video

2008-08-27T16:48:00.001+08:00

Hahas... Today no lesson. Lol cuz Mr Chua said that we need to help the Jurong CC mooncake thingy. So helped until 2pm+. We sit at block 117A and wait. Also dunno wait for what. Then Mr Tharman(dunno how to spell) came and we watched the gu zhen from our school performing and Mr Tharman also watching. After the whole thing we need to distribute mooncakes to the residents of block 116,117 and 118. There is a unit in block 116 7th floor which is very smelly and i have to stand there until the person came to open the door to receive the mooncake. Then Kayle and Alvin also there and after we left they also said that it is very smelly. I also dunno what it is smelly. After that Mr Chua wants a helper to herlp cook the nuggets and fishballs so i called and asked my mother if she can cook and she said yes. So my mother have to cook lor. Lol. If not nice dun blame me ar.

2008-08-22T19:33:00.002+08:00

Lol.. Today after school wait at the canteen until 2pm then go for npcc. Today quite good NPCC dun need bring uniform. But need to do the stupid NYAA thing. Waste Time!!! Took 2 hour to finish the thing need to write stories about what i have learnt, what sports i have been doing, and what CIP program that i have done this year. Lol need to come up with a lot of stories... Like writing essay like that... Then that stupid SI, dunno for what reason shout at us like idoit like that. Allowed us to walk around in the classroom then come back in scold us for walking around in the class... zzz.

2008-08-19T15:00:00.005+08:00

Sian handphone kena confiscated by teacher... Also after common test liao. still teach. like only i bring handphone to school like that. Then after her lesson she asked me to go look for her after school. Then go look for her lor. After school for look for her liao. Then she say my oral very lousy, then say i never concentrate in class, at least i never sleep. Then keep saying that she will call my parents. But in the end took back the handphone.

Can teachers punish student like that?

2008-08-12T22:10:00.005+08:00

Today during maths lesson mr liew went to present his slides for the overseas trip and we were left in class with no teacher. I watch Mcvie, Don, Min Hui and George play true or dare and Mcvie is the first one to tell and he chose true. So we asked him who he likes and he sayed Shronn. Lol the next he chose dare we dare him to tell mr liew that he like shronn. Then he dun dare tell and i helped he tell and mr liew said that you like like lar tell me for what. After school we walk to bus stop together and Alvin and Brenda walked together there is evidence dun say i anyhow say look below.

here are some photos taken in class

2008-08-11T19:19:00.002+08:00

Today early in the morning 6am i woke up cuz my handphone alarm rang... i forgot to off it. Lol then my mother asked me why i wake up so early and ask me go back to sleep. Then sleep until 8am plus ming hui called me and i wake up again to pick up the phone and go out to on com and play RanOnine with him i lvl 23 and he lvl 22... hehe win him by 1 lvl want play go this website http://ran.myrosso.com/en/index.asp
i yesterday then start to play it then after playing com i went to walk walk with ming hui then go back to ming hui house and disturb ming hui's younger brother.

2008-08-09T11:49:00.002+08:00

yesterday after national day celebration we went to suntec because there is wcg there and we are unlucky that there are no dota competition on that day then we went to vivo to walk walk and see see then we went home after lunch and some walking at home i keep playing dota and mythwar 2 until 11.30pm+ then sleep then today after waking up i go and watch doremon after that i go play computer 2 matches of dota and now playing mythwar 2...

2008-08-06T17:54:00.002+08:00

Lol. Today the old forks home visit canceled again... Mr Chua never come then canceled. Cancel for like 3 times liao... from last month need to go 1 but postpone until now still haven go. tommrrow no math lesson. no math = no homework and dun need to hand in homework for math also. today play computer until now. today alvin go sms everybody in class keep saying hi hi hi... nth to do then make my phone vibrate.

2008-08-04T18:03:00.002+08:00

Today 1st lesson sit beside Heli then he say he very sleepy then he keep rolling his eyes and i keep looking at his and keep laughing... After that PE then dunno why Mr Liew angry that we kicked the ball... I thin got somebody kicked the ball and hit him... After school went to KFC and eat then Wai Yau Ming Hui and Song Wen wanted to come me house and do project but i playing dota with Don, KayLe and Jun Yi then they cannot do project... and they go Song Wen's house and do...

2008-07-31T19:36:00.002+08:00

Lol today during CEP go to ppl's blogs and see. Lol Mr Chua went to Alvin, Brenda and Dickie's blog to see then Dickie's blog is the most nice to see. Then after school went to eat. Then we went back to school and prepare for the Perak's presentation. During the preparation we went into youtube to watch Bobby Lee's videos. Here are some of it...

Another one...

2008-07-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

Lol. Today whole day at home ming hui go malaysia so cannot go his house then at home morning 1st thing i go on com then play until 10+ then go eat breakfast after that continue to play until lunch then after lunch go do some homework until dinner. After dinner go play com again... Lol seems like whole day playing com play until now.

2008-07-25T18:28:00.004+08:00

QUIZ TAGGED BY WaiYau

Name 15 people that comes to my mind.
1.WaiYau
2.MingHui
3.Heli
4.WeiLun
5.QiLong
6.XinZhe
7.ChunBoon
8.JunYi
9.George
10.Dickie
11.Brenda
12.Alvin
13.ZiFang
14.HongChai
15.SongWen
16.Daniel
17.Mcvie
18.Muhaimin
19.JunKai
20.HuiMin

How did i meet 14[HongChai]?
In Boon Lay Garden Primary. Lol.

What would you do if you never meet 1[WaiYau]?
Lol. Then he wont be so tall. Jkjk. I will no be able to play basketball with him

What if 9[George] and 20[HuiMin]are fated?
Lol i dunno if they know each other or not.

Will 6[XinZhe] and 17[Mcvie] date?
If they are gays, they will.

Describe 3[Heli]
Funny?

Is 8[JunYi] attractive?
attractive to others but not me cuz i not gay.

Describle 7[ChunBoon]
Everyday sleep in class.

Do you know any of 12's[Alvin] family members?
His mother and father.

What if 18[Muhaimin] confess to you he or she likes you?
I not gay!!

What language does 15[SongWen] speak?
Chinese sometimes English.

Who's going out with 9[Gergoge]?
His Girlfriend?

How old is 16[Daniel]?
15 .

When did you last speak to 13[ZiFang]?
Yesterday when i sneak up during recess.

What is 2's[MingHui] fave singer?
Zhou Jie Lun... think so.

Would you ever date with 4[WeiLun]
No cuz he like to tiu ppl.

Will you ever date with 17[Mcvie]
Lol i dun want to date with a siao kia and i am not gay.

Is 19[JunKai]single?
Yes.

What 10[Dickie]last name?
Wong?

School of 3[Heli] ?
Yuan Ching Secondary School.

Where does 6[XinZhe] live ?
A condominium near our school.

What is your fravouite thing of 5[QiLong]?
His hand cuff on his pencil box.

Have you seen 2[MingHui] naked?
Lol. Half naked then have.

5 ppl I choose to do this test

1.QiLong
2.Brenda
3.Muhaimin
4.HuiMin
5.Alvin

2008-07-24T17:49:00.003+08:00

Lol today Mr Chua tell me that i keep talking during morning assembly. Dunno which HOD tell him 1. Then 1 lesson MT go com lab do project... Then EL for 3 periods after recess. Then POA go down play dog and bone. Lol. We go to the parade square to play under the hot sun and we were all sweating but it is fun... Miss Koh told us that she did not consider the weather. After POA then SS after that CEP go down eat food. i also dunno what food and watch racial riot videos... After that walk home and rot in front of my com again...

2008-07-23T22:26:00.002+08:00

Today is the most boring day of the 5 days in school... First we have 2 periods of social studies, then 3 periods of POA then my favorite Recess!! Then after that we have 5 periods of maths... zzz. Lol, then i keep calling people in class. All of them never pay attention to what Miss Ong is teaching. Then she keep saying pay attention. After saying that she ask Mcvie to go up and be a teacher to feel how is it like to teach when no one is listening. After school i went to eat with Don, Heli, Wei Lun and Alvin. After eating i went home to rot in front of my com[juz like pudge].

2008-07-22T16:50:00.002+08:00

Sorry yesterday never post because of napfa 5 items until 6.00 pm plus then reach home and ican only use com until 6.00 plus no matter what time i come back. Lol today i sms al lot of ppl in class during math lesson i ask them reply then they never reply... then 1st of august need to go do IC... Dont need go NPCC and maybe also chem remedial Wai Yau why dont want play divert call... Ask ppl divert call liao then the last person divert to mr Liew.

2008-07-19T15:07:00.002+08:00

Today promotion test, results next friday then release. Shout until my throat pain... Then got dunno what malaysia trip only 10 ppl can go then. Go with sir and ma'am... and hopefully i get promoted...

2008-07-18T19:12:00.007+08:00

Hahas today i never bring handphone today... So Wai Yau cannot sms me!!Lol. Then after school got chem remedial then later got npcc service day. Go around block 353 tell ppl about crime prevention things. Tomorrow have promotion day... another boring day tomorrow... need to wake up at 6.00 and reach school by 7.30. sian...

2008-07-17T17:13:00.003+08:00

Lucky today no math later got homework again. Tomorrow need to hand in e math and a math homework both i also haven do finish. Wai Yau sms me during his d and t lesson and my poa lesson!!. But too bad my phone in silent mode. Then Razack keep asking me to see the message. Then nothing intesting liao...

2008-07-16T14:58:00.003+08:00

I never go do project with my group cuz nobody tell me. I only know it when i reached home. LOL. Then during maths lesson when miss Ong teaching wai yau call me when mr liew when off... Then i called back then he call me again... Lol Then have SS class test after school so difficult i think i sure fail. Then early in the morning got ppl called alvin's home ask tell his mother that he has been kidnapped and call her to give him 20k... then her mother called school to confirm and also called the police.

2008-07-15T16:39:00.009+08:00

Once again a new day starts.1st lesson of the day geog... mdm Ow not free then miss Koh come. She gave us test then we say the test open book 1[actually is not] then she asked us sure or not. We said yes then we continue our test during the test she ran around the school to find mdm Ow to confirm if that is true when she come back she ask us keep all our textbook. And she lecture us after our test.During physics Chun Boon sleeping then the ''new'' teacher sitting arrangement never update 1 he wanted to ask Chun Boon to wake up then he keep calling Chern Ping wake up. Then everybody laugh. After physics is MT during that time some our 3e2 student go health checkup then my back bone bended 4degrees liao. Need to sit properly.During math got math test. Mr liew want to set very difficult 1 cuz i keep touching his hair during Olympics Day Run. Some picture during Olympics Day Run

2008-07-14T21:55:00.002+08:00

My first post for this blog.. also my first blog. Today PE run 2.4km[again] tiring. Then Geog *yawn* boring. Cuz I never do anything. Then after recess MT only got very little ppl in class, 3e3 got compass program then some of the 3e1 ppl need to go health checkup. After school go kfc eat. Then Song Wen cannot go home cuz his house lock from the inside.

End of post.